.
oh turkey.
i told her i'd love her til death do us part.
even told her i'd love her if she got fat as a mama cow.
then she grew a wattle.
i didn't notice it until we were gettin close one night y'know and it was like kissin a loose bag of change. world don't make sense. was it cos i used to call her turkey? that was her pet name before we got hitched don't remember why. she didn't really have no chobbly chin or make no crazy gobble sounds before but uh don't call her that anymore cos i think she'd get all nervous nancy on me if y'did.
ma and pa and sis never saw nothin like it. neither did the guys at the foundry except jim. dipshit t
.
We sit in the corner of the window, watch the girl loving the boy. He traces the lower hem of her shirt, brings his lips to her head. I press against the glass. Hear.
Young men, choose the dew of women
whose lunatic cruelty to which
only your violence and love can retort,
not the dead ink of pen murderers.
They face one other, noses almost touching. You imagine this close, she can only focus on one of his eyes. Will it matter which one?
The Rampart of Twigs, I say.
He rests his head in the crook of her neck. My ear is cold against the window.
You ask, How does it end?
Terribly.
You insist.
Be swift muscular fish, keep to the
.
who would have thought this feeling could exist,
my heart aflutter at her batted lash?
what tempest has her love let loose, what mist
has come to pass over my mind? a crash
of breaths like sailors drawn by siren song
have kissed my shores of lung with weary ships.
their bodies pass on through as ghosts along
the rivers of my mind.
.
The city squawks with traffic at half past six. A Peking Duck hangs at the restaurant window. My friend explains how he used to raise them, hundreds of ducklings on their family farm.
They lived for seven weeks and in the last three, I couldn't allow them to stop eating.
And if they did?
I force fed them.
Did you feel bad?
Not when I got paid.
/
His coworkers from the stock exchange are already seated. We sit down as waitresses ferry Yanjing beer and tea. The first dishes: chicken broth and lotus root, pork cutlets and peppers, beef tenderloin and watercress.
As I clear my plate, they keep topping it; and as I sip from my glass, th
.
the chimney smoke
blows like hair
like love
like you
in the wind
its ashen hum
rising through
the clouds
my reverend
heart beats
a trembling dove
a man without
love pinned
to a crux of spine
dear burden of mine
o father have i sinned
what fire turned
this bread to stone
what sent
my voice
to roam
without my ribs
that gnash
like children
weeping in the gloam
my chest is pried
a tongueless jaw
with nothing left
to steal
or say after
those words
how much
lonelier
i feel
.
.
Take its mouth like a conch,
portal to a violent sea,
and let its tongue slip
over yours. Hear
it storm against your teeth,
swallow. Do not care
if it is French or not.
We are sommeliers
of a lower order.
Anxiety sinks, thought
fumbles for a raft. Stop.
Remember you are bored.
Worry not: you have half
a case and yourself.
You smile and touch your lip,
drop your eyes to the bottle:
empty as the man
who left you here
.
wu xian shen
.
my father threshes
the thin green grass,
sets it aflame.
our mother gathers
the cinders, mixes
a meal into grey.
here, a dish born
of a dying garden
:
my brother is the first
to eat he does not die
immediately.
so we follow,
joking about the smoked spice,
laughing until our tummies hurt:
one swelling
after the other.
we huddle around the shithole,
our faces wrung like rags
.
father leaves as we enter
the kitchen
where is he going?
she sweeps the quiet shards
of his anger.
.
i.
man with a golf club,
where are you going?
have you a message to chip
into a trader's skull?
do you drive into traffic
from your penthouse range?
you walk with purpose:
are you getting chai?
ii.
man in the window,
what do you see?
the interns in pencil skirts
peeking downtown,
the old tourists dragging
their eyes on the ground,
everybody looking
to where they are going.
why don't you?
.
i.
there is a slaughterhouse
where the hungry men reincarnate
as bulls. a cleaver spattered in red
teases: chase me, chase me now,
caresses a thigh, then thrusts
its tongue like a knife.
ii.
he hangs in wet pieces.
the street salivates with rain,
swallows the leaves
that once lined the way.
a boy eyes his flank,
an old man trades silver
for his feet, a girl enters
and passes him by.
iii.
if he had lips
or life, he would beg,
daughter, it is i!
but she chews the fat
with the cashier: a new child,
weather, supper plans after
mass for her widowed mother.
she wraps him in the morning
paper, tucks him in her bag
.
oh turkey.
i told her i'd love her til death do us part.
even told her i'd love her if she got fat as a mama cow.
then she grew a wattle.
i didn't notice it until we were gettin close one night y'know and it was like kissin a loose bag of change. world don't make sense. was it cos i used to call her turkey? that was her pet name before we got hitched don't remember why. she didn't really have no chobbly chin or make no crazy gobble sounds before but uh don't call her that anymore cos i think she'd get all nervous nancy on me if y'did.
ma and pa and sis never saw nothin like it. neither did the guys at the foundry except jim. dipshit t
.
We sit in the corner of the window, watch the girl loving the boy. He traces the lower hem of her shirt, brings his lips to her head. I press against the glass. Hear.
Young men, choose the dew of women
whose lunatic cruelty to which
only your violence and love can retort,
not the dead ink of pen murderers.
They face one other, noses almost touching. You imagine this close, she can only focus on one of his eyes. Will it matter which one?
The Rampart of Twigs, I say.
He rests his head in the crook of her neck. My ear is cold against the window.
You ask, How does it end?
Terribly.
You insist.
Be swift muscular fish, keep to the
.
who would have thought this feeling could exist,
my heart aflutter at her batted lash?
what tempest has her love let loose, what mist
has come to pass over my mind? a crash
of breaths like sailors drawn by siren song
have kissed my shores of lung with weary ships.
their bodies pass on through as ghosts along
the rivers of my mind.
.
The city squawks with traffic at half past six. A Peking Duck hangs at the restaurant window. My friend explains how he used to raise them, hundreds of ducklings on their family farm.
They lived for seven weeks and in the last three, I couldn't allow them to stop eating.
And if they did?
I force fed them.
Did you feel bad?
Not when I got paid.
/
His coworkers from the stock exchange are already seated. We sit down as waitresses ferry Yanjing beer and tea. The first dishes: chicken broth and lotus root, pork cutlets and peppers, beef tenderloin and watercress.
As I clear my plate, they keep topping it; and as I sip from my glass, th
.
the chimney smoke
blows like hair
like love
like you
in the wind
its ashen hum
rising through
the clouds
my reverend
heart beats
a trembling dove
a man without
love pinned
to a crux of spine
dear burden of mine
o father have i sinned
what fire turned
this bread to stone
what sent
my voice
to roam
without my ribs
that gnash
like children
weeping in the gloam
my chest is pried
a tongueless jaw
with nothing left
to steal
or say after
those words
how much
lonelier
i feel
.
.
Take its mouth like a conch,
portal to a violent sea,
and let its tongue slip
over yours. Hear
it storm against your teeth,
swallow. Do not care
if it is French or not.
We are sommeliers
of a lower order.
Anxiety sinks, thought
fumbles for a raft. Stop.
Remember you are bored.
Worry not: you have half
a case and yourself.
You smile and touch your lip,
drop your eyes to the bottle:
empty as the man
who left you here
.
wu xian shen
.
my father threshes
the thin green grass,
sets it aflame.
our mother gathers
the cinders, mixes
a meal into grey.
here, a dish born
of a dying garden
:
my brother is the first
to eat he does not die
immediately.
so we follow,
joking about the smoked spice,
laughing until our tummies hurt:
one swelling
after the other.
we huddle around the shithole,
our faces wrung like rags
.
father leaves as we enter
the kitchen
where is he going?
she sweeps the quiet shards
of his anger.
.
i.
man with a golf club,
where are you going?
have you a message to chip
into a trader's skull?
do you drive into traffic
from your penthouse range?
you walk with purpose:
are you getting chai?
ii.
man in the window,
what do you see?
the interns in pencil skirts
peeking downtown,
the old tourists dragging
their eyes on the ground,
everybody looking
to where they are going.
why don't you?
.
i.
there is a slaughterhouse
where the hungry men reincarnate
as bulls. a cleaver spattered in red
teases: chase me, chase me now,
caresses a thigh, then thrusts
its tongue like a knife.
ii.
he hangs in wet pieces.
the street salivates with rain,
swallows the leaves
that once lined the way.
a boy eyes his flank,
an old man trades silver
for his feet, a girl enters
and passes him by.
iii.
if he had lips
or life, he would beg,
daughter, it is i!
but she chews the fat
with the cashier: a new child,
weather, supper plans after
mass for her widowed mother.
she wraps him in the morning
paper, tucks him in her bag
/
The rituals of life: to remember to forget, to love to forget, to forgive to forget.
Could it then mean, to forgive is to love, and to love is to remember?
/
/
sometimes i have this dream where i'm watching myself from a passing car, just running at the side of the road. i'm pretty sure i'm the runner — the view from the car is just a projected perception, a disembodied cinematographer, or a bored kid debating whether he should take his adderall with welch's or allen's when all he wants to do is vent his dad's dopamine-centric slaving via binge lego-building. he makes a cocktail and downs the amphetamine in a sweet gastric slurry and forgets about the runner.
anywho, this is my indirect way of expressing thanks to
i) Vigilo (https://www.deviantart.com/vigilo) for the dd suggestion and reminding me that i used to write,